American singer Kelly Clarkson is letting fans in a bit into her personal life. The 38 year old American Idol star in a chat with Sunday Today with host Willie Geist revealed her life is “a little bit of a dumpster.”
“I mean, it’s no secret. My life has been a little bit of a dumpster… personally, it’s been a little hard the last couple months,” Clarkson said.
Back in June, the singer filed for divorce from husband Brandon Blackstock after nearly seven years of marriage. The pair share 6-year-old daughter River and 4-year-old son Remington.
“I’ve been talking to friends that have been through divorce. I don’t know how people go through that without having some kind of outlet because it is the worst thing ever for everyone involved,” she told Geist.
“I am a very open person, but I’m not going to be able to be truly open about this in certain aspects because there’s kids involved,” Clarkson says. “I think that I will navigate a way in which to be open and honest about it eventually, probably via the show, and it’ll probably, I’m assuming, happen organically when someone says something in conversation or something. It definitely wouldn’t be planned.”
“But my children and his older children — there are a lot of little hearts involved in this and while people feel, ‘Oh my gosh, what a loss’… imagine how it is in the epicenter of the storm,” she explains. “It’s a lot to process and deal with, just as a family. So because it’s not just me, I probably won’t go too deep with it.”
Clarkson is however grateful to have a musical outlet to express all her feelings:
“It’s funny, I actually told my therapist recently, ‘I have no idea how one goes through any kind of huge life change, like a divorce, that doesn’t have some kind of an outlet,'” she says. “I am very lucky. Even from my childhood, my mom told me I had a problem expressing my emotions and all these things when I was really young and that I should start writing. So that’s me expressing it. I usually leave it in the songs and that’s usually my therapy.”